Color me a bit confused here but as I recall when I was banned I was in private conversation with noiseboi not sure what he said out in the open room to the monitors but I am somewhat pissed off about it. For those I was harsh on I apologize so I hope there is no hurt feelings here with anyone. Para I really didn't mean what I said I was just upset but well thats in the past. I was on sz.com recently and I saw post from others complaining about the monitors. It's ironic how people don't like how I speak my mind and say what I feel I am just myself no one different.

I take a job placement test on the 1st of December so hopefully soon I will have a job thats what I am hoping for. I admit I had to be on disabilty for a while because I was ill but now since I am better I rather work than be at home. Syn if you do happen to read this email me sometime and tell me when is a good time to catch you on MSN Messenger I would really like to chat with you if that's possible. I was pleased to hear from Violet she seems so happy and I am proud of her and I am thankful to have her as a friend.

Does anyone know where disdain hangs out these days? If you know where disdain goes online let me know. I recently moved to another house but still living at home so hopefully after I start working I can afford my own place. I wish everyone a happy holiday season and hope to hear from some of you soon. If some of you can sign my guestbook and leave your email address that would be a big help to me. Anyhow hate to cut this short but I got to go bye for now.